next time is now...

What a year...its been the shortest and most eventful year of my life. My year began on July 5th, not only was it a day where I became a wife, but also a mom. Having just past our 1 year anniversary, I had such mixed emotions because I knew that it was one of the best days of my life, but knowing that Madi wasn't with us made it alittle hard since she was concieved on that day. During the year of 2008-2009 I have again, become a wife, a mom, a teacher, a worship leader, I student taught, I graduated with my masters and I experienced a love and loss I never thought I'd have to experience.

As July 6, 2009 came, I felt like maybe this would be a start of a better year, that we would close the book on such a cauotic year and enter into territory that was familiar and that we could do a better job at. I'd like to think that this past year was a 'rough draft' as God continues to reveal our written story. It was a test run, a practice for the real thing. My hopes are that this year will be a year of difference; that next July 5th we will look back and say "what a great chapter" because our story isn't over. So far, this year is beginning to look very similar to last year, but I have a better attitude and know what to expect when it comes to being a wife, a mother, a teacher, a worship leader, and a woman of God. Nothing about this past year has been easy, but I learned so much and I know this time around will be better.

Tomorrow we meet with the specialist from U.W. to discuss what to do next time we are pregnant, but 'oh, what a glorious day' because next time, is now!!! We found out this afternoon that we are once again pregnant. What a blessing, such a precious and special gift. I looked back on my pregnancy with Madi and had regrets, and I will not have any this time because this time is different...we will have a healthy baby, there will be no death or complications, and just like before, we will continue to praise God regardless, in Jesus name, AMEN.